Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @9:34 PM
I hope everyone has had a nice CNY. Hope everyone has taken these few daes to spend time with their families, cause thats what i think CNY is about. Yeap, REUNION.
But in this post i shall not blahblahblah on about how i spent my CNY holids. So just what has driven me to finnally come back to post? Cause for some reason im in a stable mood now and has started to think about alot of things.
Its probably sparked by my recent habit of bloghopping ( i rarely do that), but not just jumping to other's blogs through the links. I only viewed like a smallsmallsmall handful of close friend's blogs ARCHIVES. Yes, archives. I would spend like a whole hour or two just on one goodfriend's blog and looking through, thankfully most of them keep a record way back to 2007.
It's not that i have nothing better to do, I just like to view old stuff, pictures,blogs,
CHATLOGS. I like to observe changes that took place within that period to the present. Its a thirst of knowledge for history. (I dont take history and dont think i like it)
And of course, changes that took place in people. As far as I can say, this has gotta be the most intriguing. Whether is it character or looks, it is always a pleasure to observe how a close friend has changed. It creates a deeper relationship and understanding for him/her.
FEEL FREE TO ASK ME TO COPYPASTE CHATLOGS FOR YOU! I have archived it all the way back to April 2007 so anywhere from that time to now, all the words that I and you have typed is recorded. I feel a slight sense of pity for those who do not keep their chatlogs. Deprived of being able to recall important words exchanged through MSN. But ah well its now too late to start. Its really a digital time capsule , who knows a decade or two later you might come back and look at them?
Yes, looking through blogarchives/chatlogs has really made me experience alot. When i read a section, a happy one, i remember the good times i had that time.
Enough about the happiness. As hurtful as it is, I feel it is important to find the UNHAPPY parts and go through them once again. They shall serve as a reminder that I had once gone through those times and proof that ive become stronger. But still, just now, JUST just now (a couple minutes ago) i went through a real, large, painful spike and it
lingers. Yes, thats the price to pay for raking up the past, hurtful things will still hurt no matter how much time has passed.
I have to say it really burns my inside. Ouch =( (first emoticon here). It hurts when someone does not care about you as much as you think. Okay shall share no more~! Theres the limit of thoughts i pour out.
So to conclude, I wanna ask everyone to cherish the past and present, and embrace the future. I feel like jumping back into time to tell the people in the pics that i appreciate them. For those whom ive only recently met, I jump right back into time way before i met them and talk to them. Picture it like "Ermh, zhisheng? I dont think we have met. Dont know you." And i shall reach out my hand and reply "Its okay, i believe that we will be very good friends in future.
I am sure of it =)"